Losing You

For an instant, I thought I have lost you
For an instant, it was raining cats and dogs here
In an abyss, of ashtray...Ostracized by oneself
In the land of none...I found myself
As they say...." A look into the abyss and the abyss looks back at me"
Separated, Segregated, desolate in a chase of you
A spectator witnessing from the distant
I waited for your laughter and I cherished your anger
Your sorry to disappoint you and I spilling the beats away
I contemplated and consulted, stating you are occupied 
In the stage of the world, there are a multitude of errands ones go through everyday
I looked and scrutinized you in the silhouette of Bob Dylann
Darling, it's alright don't think twice...And the hurricane swelled
Over a pile of ashes that still burns...Scented candles devoid of their essence
Rhetoric as the kiss that never happened...Pardon my naive altercations
I fathom and absorb, I search you in the fragments of the glass that never break
The door ajar and the arid wind of your noir haircut
Wonder how they levitate with the wind as you place them precisely at the back of your ears
Another kindle, another drag, and a tap at the filter
I have your rose wine preserved in the casket of benevolence
And yes there's a "me" trapped in the incessant cycle of finding and losing the hold of your hand
In the abyss of ashtray...Ostracized by oneself
Soon I'll lose a part of me aging in your presence

By - Kshitij Sinha
03/06/2021





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