Absence

Where are you....My absence my void
My pain and my desire to survive
My melancholy and my lament cries
Where are you the dark nights the dejected moon and the emplty skies
Cold winds and shivering winter of autumn slides
Tired legs and barren land embracing with goodbyes
Where are you...Pounding heart on the bridge of stroke and a will that already died
Intimidating the fragile and the shy
I never was and never will be the one giggling the one smiling and the one injected with joy
No more closed spaces no more enclosure...Rescue me from this plague of the free mind
Lap of happiness is not my comfort
The shiny broad daylight scares every inch of mine
What that remains...is torn clothes and the cracked glass of Zinfandel wine
The profound beauty is a sea
It's sharp and pointed..yet over that pain, I want to stroll with time
Your memory is sad..It's shattered and vandalized
Yet it's precisely where I want to stay and confine
Closing the doors for brightness redefining my relief as I weep
My prayer and my hymn
I'll too be empty...empty as you are
A bag full of lies
A tune that passed by...A smoke A suffocation
A wish...I could avoid
I'll be remarkably vulnerable....then my sensations, my sentiments... all will be fortified

By- Kshitij Sinha
7/2/2020

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