MIDNIGHT BLUE

Don't make me fall for you again my love Don't make me fall for you again I can't live being that singular placid serene yet insecure being Multiple faces has absorbed me instead  Multiple masks provide my individual identity  I can't be just yours no more Let the distance grow let the fire turn cold You were in the sweetest part of circle  Your vicinity was my home my comfort  You saw and faced the bitter me Yet now I want the tangent to remain  Like parallel lines.. Let our memories meet at infinite I can't let my defense go weak anymore  I wish you were here.. I wish I can caress and behold  My bottle of zinfandel.. My futile door of efforts  I wish a lot and yes not all the wishes deserve to come true  Don't make me fall for you again my love  Let me go.. Let me wander and loose Let me be of everyone else.. To make sure I only belonged to you A child A kid A novice... And a path forever locke...

You remind me of someone I have long forgotten You remind me of a story...Improperly fiction You remind me of a smile shadowed by your grin You remind me of a heart both broken and forged in memory lanes You remind me of a soul...So gentle and kind Mischevious and calm, dull and cheerful, the jovial and dark Gullible and innocent...A child by far You remind me of a Gemini... Too dwelled into the delusion of grandeur So narcissist, So mean, So caring, so tender Yet never close to my path You remind me of pain, you remind me of all the shattered beliefs A city A dream A lake A  boat and a storm of broken hearts You remind me of someone, I have long forgotten You remind me of a story... .A crime, A thriller, A mystery, A drama, and a biography By-Kshitij Sinha 30/11/2019

Dear Moavi I don’t remember the last time I wrote these words, but I must have definitely been as englightened as I’m right now. I don’t know how long I’ll be able to write. It’s been ages since I even last wrote as it feels like the person with pen in me has left it’s abode I feel that void it’s a broken emptiness, something I was so long attached. I wish he must be roaming somewhere travelling the whole Europe probabily which I have always wished but never could, never even in the path I see lying ahead and dear that, that’s something that scares me the most. TO not being able to achieve that. To not being able to walk those aisles which I have always imagined dreamed and desired. I feel so lonely surrounded by people as the idea of standing there even in sillhoutte amazes me. They say time brings everything closer and they say you’ll get all your wishes fulfilled with time as there’s a so called perfect timing for everyting yet they also say that time and tide waits for none an...

I have walked over your grave. The ashes were dead and so red it remains Remain in me till your last breath Remain in me till we masquerade Like a fish diving deep into the ocean Like our flesh burning away...Remain in me till they turn grey Remain in me as the lullaby I sing for you Like nightmares in daydreams.. Haunt me in albeit ways Myriad paths and the autumn where we all are discrete Remain in me till the song ends Night and day let the journey of thoughts do their play Remain in me... As close as breath sways Remain in me protected in the mother's lap Remain in me the echo of melancholy stays Remain in me...All I have is you My thoughts, My imagination, My ordeal and My pain By- Kshitij Sinha 6/10/2019

Sometimes I wonder what if we engulf the future memories over past experiences, what if we just wrapped the two dimensions into a single thought perspective resulting into one eloped dwelling present, will it make sense, did anything ever did. I don't know still there's no harm in trying. Recently I went on a trip, a trip of this sleepy town called Coorg, crossing over the manor and lush green fields, crossing over pups lakes and the charming faces. Still, I was thinking about you it's not a case of always rather say 'subtly seldom', still far more than a blue moon night... I adore you and I admire you on the cruise of my sweet blasphemy where I mischievously peek and glare at you finding reasons to glance at you, the imaginary conversations where I talk with you. I wish I could describe what I'm looking right now is surrounded by coffee plantations far more different and versatile than I ever imagined, the huge estates a tiny pocket of paradise on its own flu...

It's just time Is it? she asked Yes my darling it's the time we depart Depart from a euphoria...Depart from an age Depart from a wind-down long and past the memory lanes  Summer and a cold age of emotions maybe an extended roller-coaster ride Night chills, hue mornings and dusk kissing the silver lines Who am I to judge who am'I to describe Look above Look beyond  Look wide and Look deep in the sunshine Like wind, I'll flow a maple leaf floating mid-air in the sky Cherish, laugh and let me also smile Are we good without each-other? What's wrong in trying Dear Rain, don't let your petrichor be too harsh on your child You remind me of someone I have long forgotten You remind me of a story...Improperly fiction You remind me of a heart both broken and blind By- Kshitij Sinha 11/07/2019  

How much have you lived and how much have you died What do I know of you, except a soul passing by  You tread on your paths you make your lines Some I'll cross... Some I'll dread and regret my lifetime  Who were you,  where you come from? Unclear of your existence...Do you matter, Were you ever did? You'll always be a stranger, unknown, forgotten, mystic and lost Like a thought, like a dream, like a canvas..Empty and void Albeit the door ajar... How much it lets you peek, how deep you desire to sink   Hands we hold, walk where we smile and behold  How much of it was real.. How much we remember  As centuries decay into half lives  Blow the dandelions kiss the palette cheeks  I wish to get lost in all the cities deprived of starry nights  Did you ever explored, will you ever come out Who are you scared of...Me or the world you engulf inside How much you know, how much you hide How much we say how much we...

Yes you rained my love You opened up and spoke my love Galloped in melody and strangled me in rhyme Silent in a whisper...Yet the resonating smile Oh! love my love...Hope we never meet in time The first rain of a year where we don't exist Thunder do stuck...yet doesn't made noise instead Wind eloped petrichor immersed...A nascent memory blossomed and faded in bliss What else is there to seek what else is there to need Except for a company far from both you and me Lush green manor, a silent walk-in retrospection Among dichotomy of peace..I'll collapse in the coldness you gift Like hales dripping down among ashes Longing for the warmth of waves, wind, sands, and myriad unknown faces Yes you rained my love Slowly you drizzled...Haunting answers you stormed Fierce your drops so sharp..Vanishing even before touching the grass True as you perceived...In dementia, I'll close my heavy eyes Where were you...Where was I Yes, we have moved on... I the au...

Dear Moavi I feel so close to you now, more than I ever have I feel like running away and hugging you so tight so close...like an eternal presence. Today morning was quite diffrent yesterday it was an extreme counterpart it was a day when the humble twin broke like an old habbit running and tracing steps back towards an old mistake. Do I regret that well who am'I to judge to brake is a luxury I seldom posess, yet today when I woke up I felt changed as the other twin took over and yes it was a nascent child like feeling one without the emotions of attachmnet or detachments the one with only a pure grin looking up peering deep in the eyes of the sky as the first drop drizzles to form a cherishable rain ready to dwell in that unprecended petrichor forgetful of all those fears and nonexistent for everyone else. I felt a vibe saying it's time to move ahead and realize the learnings and to recognize what life has always holded for you. And like always whenever I have felt the ne...

There's a way sea sounds It's omnipresent it's ubiquitous I see you I feel you, like a wave as it passes by The lullaby you sing for me isn't soothing my shrine Not anymore... Do try a rhyme  You pressed my chest you blew air into my mouth You rubbed my legs and with hope peered in my eyes Like a flicker, your salty drops are now wasting my time Am'I being rude dear... The azure you hold Has just lost that style There's a way sea sounds It's ubiquitous It's omnipresent Your sand is still mine though It's rough It's brutal...It's a nascent emotion Like a newborn child... I rush I wish.. I pray I could hold Only to be held in this resonating concussion  Woken up with a lullaby  Not today...Not in the days passing by Little fake little cheeky...little real Simply, I'll close my eyes diving deep into infinity No truth No lies  There's a way sea sounds It's audacious its acumen It's chronological in orde...

Dear Moavi I'm writing this to you for a sense of belongingness, for a sense of togetherness and for a sense of ownness, life isn't easy and yet it's a complete challenge to thrive in it again and again as everyday is just passing by like a fragment of sand that is just slipping again and again from my hands the more I try to hold it the more it escapes from my continuity as if it's dejecting me the waves which were the blankets of my cold winter nights are not just accepting me anymore instead it's choking me, like they have poured all there love in this force and strangling me is the only solution they have found to escape this vortex. Sometimes I feel like a bird with a huge wingspan still easiest to spread them and loving to flap them again and again, again and again unless and until the only thing that's visible to me is that never ending horizon, even the tiniest idea lits me. It's becoming very hard for me to write now, like every single word is ...

Oh dear sparrow fly high as you can Don't let the falcon steal your horizon You're mine and you'll be mine...I do assure you that I assure you the warmth of love and affection A melody of wings flattering till it's extent Sprinkling stardust just like the pure reflection you have Don't stop keep moving ahead and ahead Your claws were never meant to harm Precisely hold the tenderest heart that I possess Hit by gust they have only fallen It's okay I never expect height anyways Oh dear sparrow you have always compromised Loosened your feathers...Shyly and joyous you left my sight Chasing the freedom I failed to provide Come let's enjoy the roller coaster ride Where I'll be the sunflower and you the moon Calm & peaceful mischevious and skillful A reflection of my master's sight An epitome of what he could never be...Gentle and kind Oh dear sparrow fly as high as you can For me, there will be another rise and another set Everythi...

Last night you came into my dreams, I don’t know the extent till which it’ll stay true yet there you were an intruder not any random passerbyer you were there for scrutiny I could sense you looking at me again and again gazing at me like a shadow flickering over and over me and still there I was not knowing what to do with you, can’t look at you can’t hold you can’t come even a step closer to you maybe in reality the things could have been different yet in dream I hold no control, I do appreciate your choice for our adultrated rendezvous, it’s been months since we broke up yet it feels a whole eternity engulfed in wine, I was feeling high and elated though all in wrong ways, I just just don’t wanted to ever look at you again. It was a new journey for me and it all started very well the first love the sacred first love yet was I ever in love I do question that. Reality changes and worlds keep changing there phases in this poised land and there I am repeating again and again trapped i...

Lynette your silence is heavy It's a burden...So light that I'm dying underneath You said it correctly and that's all it is A leap of faith...battling with the timid me It's so numb here Lynette, it doesn't provide me peace Not anymore Not among the quietness where I'm me and no one else Like turbulence, it has shaken me...It has broken & shattered In fragments, the pages of our memoirs flicker in front of me Those vibrant eyes, those hopes and a bit of smile The affection of closeness & that first touch of the divine You were different and so was I Forever just feels like a word.....Your silence that's all I hear anyways Lynette your emptiness has left a void.....It's hollow and it echoes Like a wind passing over an abandoned bottle...Aged wine, a jewel it once possessed It stays in its own...Still, to me, it spoke It sang for the dejected brothers My dear Lynette I hear the joy in it...It tickles and I laugh Like a kid stroll...

Remember just before doing anything.. Just once think about me And I'll stay Don't get influenced by someone And don't be someone you're not.. And I'll stay You don't need to hide.. It's okay darling open up and express I was there and maybe I'll stay We met we talk we fell.. You left and the mirage kept me captived It's dark in here.. It's high and the vertigo has illuminated the pathways I may drown soon.. Whisper your last words As in the rhyme.. I and always i'll stay By- Kshitij Sinha 6/3/ 2019

The sleepless nights and the wind blowing by your skies Caressing your cheeks and struggling with your eyes Eyes where i saw hope, hope where i saw affection and affection where i found silence Silence numbing my times Times the gifted jwel.. The jwel that knowingly or unknowingly vanished from my side Side an abode i couldn't afford.. Your love a mirage a charade.. A falsified justification i can't abide by Heard kafka mentioning K.. I observed you monitored Scrutiny is the fault from our part Let's agree to disagree.. Let's play let's cheat I just said.. You followed the bait.. Yet didn't left like a sigh I wish I pray.. I dwell and you slayed All the promises all the vows.. Change is the only constant The depth of the message you let me realize Let's take the unparall lines.. Let's cross over the wonders of divine I'll be me and you'll be you Separated.. Distant...scattered yet united in the memories Memories of both betrayal a...